tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-81986527031550460652024-03-14T06:02:18.984-04:00Executive HousewifeUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger218125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8198652703155046065.post-75589794836510462402013-06-23T21:01:00.002-04:002013-06-23T21:01:32.465-04:00I am a Homemaker<div style="text-align: center;">
<span class="caption">I work for a King. He has put me in charge of his home. When He comes to see how I have managed His possessions and His children, I do not want to be found wanting. I want to do my best. Everything I have is on loan from Him. I have room and board and a job to do, but it is all for Him. Therefore I want to dress my best and do my best in all my work. I also want to be creative, for this is a sincere attempt to glorify Him and His beautiful creation. How I manage my home is a form of worship to Him." </span></div>
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<span class="caption">--Lydia Sherman</span></div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8198652703155046065.post-4593331240058662352011-06-10T22:31:00.003-04:002011-06-10T22:39:13.297-04:00Can We Call It an Era?Whether it is an era or not, it is coming to an end. Due to circumstances beyond rationality, this blog is over. For the many women who have come here and took the time to email me I have been encouraged to know that the trials in my life are shared in your lives, too. It is encouraging to have heard about your strategies for managing motherhood and marriage, as well as the lessons learned in your walk with Christ.<br /><br />I will continue to visit the sites where we have met and I will eventually start up another blog, too. Feel free to email at the address listed if you have any questions about my quick exit. <br /><br />This site will remain open for the archives only.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8198652703155046065.post-24851097689986517512011-06-05T14:22:00.001-04:002011-06-15T14:33:29.488-04:00A Book (CD) Reveiw 5<img 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alt="" /><br /><br /><br />I couldn't get a bigger picture, but it is a CD not a book. This is the 2011 Woman of Faith Worship CD entitled <span style="font-style: italic;">Rejoice</span>, is a compilation of 10 worship songs sung by the Women of Faith Worship Team. Most Christians would probably recognize a couple of the songs, however, even the hymns have a real 'concert' sound to them - a little bit rocky. They put their own twist on them which I wasn't crazy about, but it was okay.<br /><br />These women have beautiful voices, without question. The singing team are listed as Kara Tualatai, Michelle Swift, Laura Cooksey, Janice Gaines, Allison Abbott, Jenifer Thigpen, and Jovaun Woods.<br /><br />Per the product description, <span style="font-style: italic;">"</span><strong style="font-weight: normal; font-style: italic;"><em>REJOICE</em> captures the unbridled joy, awestruck adoration, and reverent worship audiences experience over the course of a two-day Women of Faith event."</strong><br /><br />I can recommend for those who enjoy the comtemporary style of worship. However, I prefer a more traditional approach to hymns and christian music - the 'reverent' description on the CD does not match my idea of the word.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8198652703155046065.post-90344227085228641902011-05-26T23:12:00.009-04:002011-06-07T22:59:41.228-04:00Love/Hate RelationshipI love my computer. I hate my computer. Can I get an 'amen?!'<br /><br />We use our computer frequently throughout the day. Both my husband and I read the newspaper online. We all, including Duck, do research online. Duck and I both use <span style="font-style: italic;">Word </span>documents for organizing our daily tasks and, of course, we use it for school. Even bible studies can be done more effectively with the computer when we can't find a particular passage...the computer finds it <span style="font-style: italic;">way</span> faster than any concordance.<br /><br />Yes, this piece of technology is woven into my life for efficiency and organization. That's why I love it.<br /><br />Then there are the troubles it brings. Websites that are slow or freezing when I only have a moment before needing to move on with my day. Also the times when our server is down and feels like FOREVER before I can get into my email. The worst, however, is the security lapses that allow viruses to enter. That happened just this past few weeks.<br /><br />A virus calling itself <span style="font-style: italic;">'XP security 2011'</span> popped up and would not go away. It looked exactly like a Microsoft program and wanted me to purchase a new security system (FYI, it is not from Microsoft and should you encounter it - do not purchase it!). It took my computer hostage, refusing any access to the internet. My computer guy informed that we would have to remove the operating system and reload it. Thereby losing any data, pictures and videos that were on hard drive if I could not get them backed up on disc.<br /><br />Fortunately, I was able to remove all important and personal items onto disc - so we did not lose anything that way. What we did lose was days with our technological friend. I so, so, so missed the computer when it was unavailable. My husband and daughter felt the same way - Hoss didn't care, he just likes to chew on the cords right now.<br /><br />So, as you can see, the computer has returned to us. I have spent hours reloading software and drivers. Why is it worth it? Because I got to see <a href="http://pursuingtitus2.com/">Mrs. Parunak's </a>new baby who arrived while my computer was in limbo. Because my lists and charts for school are back at my fingertips. Because Duck can listen to Odyssey on the Radio again. Because I couldn't remember the reference for a particular bible passage that I needed.<br /><br />Yes, a true love\hate relationship. I know it is only a machine. I know that if I had to, I could live without it. I know it is only a matter of time before it disappoints me - again. I know I will do everything necessary to fix it - again.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8198652703155046065.post-7196313345667081192011-05-04T13:03:00.005-04:002011-05-04T13:27:41.912-04:00A Book Review 4<a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-rm_UD1znm14/TcGHSpgNvtI/AAAAAAAAAyc/a0_vIF0gDMY/s1600/_76_128_Book_381_cover.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5602908165873974994" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 133px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 178px" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-rm_UD1znm14/TcGHSpgNvtI/AAAAAAAAAyc/a0_vIF0gDMY/s400/_76_128_Book_381_cover.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><div>'Daddy Dates' is a book written by Greg Wright where he is talking about the revelation he had regarding his responsibilities in raising his four daughters. The idea of a father being involved in the lives of his children, girls or boys, isn't really a new idea - God planned it long, long ago. However, with so many men ignoring this responsibility, it was a pleasure to see that this book existed! </div><br /><div></div><br /><br /><div>Mr. Wright's easy reading and humourous approach to describe his journey has little to do with scripture. His heart is obviously in the right place and he takes his responsibility of loving his daughters very seriously. His tag line for the whole issue is 'Don't screw up!'.</div><br /><br /><div></div><br /><div>I can appreciate the work that he put into the relationship that he is building with each of his children. He is honest and he shows how the work has paid off for him with each of his girls. Mr. Wright does not talk over anyone's head and is open to admitting where he made mistakes, as well - which is something that always helps others trying the same thing.</div><br /><div></div><br /><br /><div>I can recommend the book, but my enthusiasm is limited. Christian men who are sitting on the fence about being godly fathers may have seen a stronger case for 'daddy dates' with the appropriate scripture attached. My husband perused the book and found it was a little <em>too</em> light on a topic that needs to be taking seriously.</div><br /><div></div><br /><br /><div>However, it is positive to have the topic out there and available in a format to introduce to men who are just stepping into the realm of fatherhood.</div><br /><div></div><br /><div><em><span style="font-size:85%;">Disclaimer: I receive books from Thomas Nelson Publishers (Booksneeze) free of charge in exchange for my unbiased opinion of them. I am not threatened or rewarded in any way in efforts to encourage me to provide a positive review. All opinions are mine. </span></em></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8198652703155046065.post-67192435922104500252011-04-21T23:24:00.008-04:002011-04-21T23:37:58.535-04:00Revisiting Easter Thoughts<em>An old post that I still study from at this time of year:</em><br /><br /><br /><div align="left"><strong>Do You Love Me? John 21:1-18<br /></strong><br />Simon Peter was a fisherman. It had been his life's work before Jesus called him. This chapter (John 21:1-18) shows us that he and other disciples returned to that familiar lifestyle when things did not turn out as they had hoped and imagined. Jesus was their leader, their Saviour, their Christ; but, to their limited sight at that time, Jesus was dead.<br /></div><br /><div align="left">Simon Peter had been so very close with Jesus. He believed he would follow Jesus to the death, if necessary (John 13:37). Instead, he had run away; he had denied Christ; he had failed.<br /></div><br /><div align="left">So there they are - fishing. They had been out all night and caught nothing. Does anyone doubt they had spent those hours in misery, focusing on their failure? They couldn't even catch a fish!</div><br /><div align="left"></div><br /><br /><div align="left">And then they see Him on the beach...calling them back, giving them instructions for success. "Put the net on the other side of the boat." Imagine the grumbling! "We are professional fisherman...we have been out here all night and caught nothing...how is that going to change by moving the net?" It made no sense, but it worked. Success from simple obedience to Jesus.<br /></div><br /><div align="left">How many times do we, as His children, run from Him. We return to our old lifestyles; we go back to doing things our way; we fail to follow Him and lay those old sins at the foot of the cross. OR, we lay down one sin, just to pick it back up again! I know I am guilty of this lack of faith, this lack of trust (Isaiah 53:6).<br /></div><br /><div align="left">The road to spiritual success is written out clearly for us. We simply need to apply scripture to each and every part of our lives (Colossians 3:17).<br /></div><br /><div align="left">1. study</div><br /><div align="left">2. examine ourselves</div><br /><div align="left">3. obey & change</div><br /><div align="left">4. success</div><br /><div align="left"></div><br /><br /><div align="left">Now picture yourself as Peter on the beach (vs. 15-17). "Simon, son of Jonas, lovest thou me?"</div><br /><div align="left"></div><br /><br /><div align="left">My heart breaks for Peter, who had agonized over his failures. Who had given up all his stated convictions of following Jesus only to return to his old lifestyle. "Yea, Lord, thou knowest that I love thee." Jesus repeats his question to Peter (or imagine it is you) three times - "(Kim), lovest thou me?" And each time He asks, we remember the sins we continue to hold onto. We peek into that closet in our hearts where we think we are hiding those areas of our life that we don't want to analyze through God's eyes. We are grieved because we have returned to our old lifestyle, yet again, instead of following Christ.</div><br /><div align="left"></div><br /><br /><div align="left">He gives us simple instruction, "Feed my sheep."</div><br /><div align="left"></div><br /><br /><div align="left">We can't do Christ's work if we constantly run away from Him. We can't "catch fish" from the side of the boat we have chosen. We can't feed His sheep without a solid, constantly growing relationship with Him. We can find success ONLY in obedience to Him.</div><br /><div align="left"></div><br /><br /><div align="left">Verse 18 shows us the difference. When we were young (unsaved) we did as we wanted. Now we are old (saved, growing) and we must follow where He carries us -- where we would not go on our own.Look at each area of your life and examine it under scriptural lenses - i.e. finances, relationships, employment, health, etc. </div><br /><div align="left"></div><br /><br /><div align="left">Is your 'net' on your side of the boat(worldly)? Are you following Christ all the way to the cross? Are your repeatedly returning to your old lifestyle?</div><br /><div align="left"></div><br /><br /><div align="left">Success will come from simple obedience. Cast your net on the other side. </div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8198652703155046065.post-207037886042348132011-04-10T18:29:00.009-04:002011-04-10T19:04:03.289-04:00A Book Review 3<a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-tPSj6S1TxAU/TaI2GmaCClI/AAAAAAAAAyU/Rzc4VAE0gHg/s1600/_200_360_Book_386_cover.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5594093174164425298" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 200px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 302px" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-tPSj6S1TxAU/TaI2GmaCClI/AAAAAAAAAyU/Rzc4VAE0gHg/s400/_200_360_Book_386_cover.jpg" border="0" /></a> I just finished this tale of adventure, excitement and perseverance. I loved it! <br /><p><em><u>Unsinkable</u></em>, written by Abby Sunderland (with Lynn Vincent) is the story of how this remarkable young woman made an attempt to be the youngest person to ever solo circumnavigate the globe, non-stop and unassisted. She was in the news for several months during the early part of 2010 for her travels...so the ending should have been rather anti-climatic when it is a real life story - she didn't make it. However, the entire story had me reading each page with delight and feeling some of the excitement, frustration and fear that Abby describes from her travels. Cheering her on a year after her adventure was done.</p><br /><p>As a sixteen year old, homeschooled girl there were plenty of trials with which she had to deal from the very moment she sought sponsors for her dream trip. Complete strangers who were critical of her age, her abilities, her intelligence and even her independence - accusing her parents of pushing her into a publicity stunt for money. People from all over chimed in with their <em>expertise</em> on sailing without acknowledging that this young woman was far from being a novice. However, Abby's expertise as sailor is evident in how much she did achieve. Her accomplishment should have silenced the naysayers, but socialists** never admit when their wrong!</p><br /><p>Not only did I enjoy this book, I had to compete with my husband to have time to read it. He loved it, too! Next, my 11 yo daughter is looking forward to it. Admittedly, the technical terms tend to drag some of the material down, but I can highly recommend the book. </p><br /><p>As a side note, this disclaimer was attached to the book by Booksneeze:</p><br /><p><em>**This title does not contain the amount of faith-focused content as many other books offered on BookSneeze.com. If you prefer Christian Living titles featuring a large amount of faith-centered content, Unsinkable is probably not the best selection for you.</em></p><br /><p>This is something that I found inaccurate. Abby and her family are professing Christians and talk about their faith openly throughout the book. It was faith for real life. Fantastic.</p><em>Disclaimer: I receive books from Thomas Nelson Publishers (Booksneeze) free of charge in exchange for my unbiased opinion of them. I am not threatened or rewarded in any way in efforts to encourage me to provide a positive review. All opinions are mine. </em><br /><p align="center"><span style="font-size:85%;">**socialist: someone who thinks they know what is best for everyone else, whether they know them or not; also like to call themselves <em>experts</em></span></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8198652703155046065.post-54958030139855822962011-04-07T11:30:00.014-04:002011-04-07T23:27:20.121-04:00Norwalking on the Wild Side<div align="left">Gingerale - check </div><br /><div align="left">Good supply of TP - check </div><br /><p align="left">Jello - check </p><br /><p align="left">Individual buckets to carry around - check </p><br /><p align="left">Can you guess what we have been doing in our house for the last week and a half? That's right...the norwalk virus hit like a tornado two Saturday's ago. I remember the moment clearly. Duck looked up at me, with a slight green tinge to her face, and said, "I don't feel very well". Within three minutes the first bucket had been used. </p><br /><p align="left">Now Duck had the worst of it. Her vomiting was out of control and we had to take a trip to the hospital for some help to stop it - at least for awhile. They gave her a magic pill that cleared up the nausea for over 4 hours! The next day she was still quite sick and living on the gingerale and jello diet. You see, norwalk may start off with coming <em>'up'</em>, then it moves <em>'down'</em>. By Monday she was back to a normal colour. Then her little brother followed in her footsteps. </p><br /><p align="left">Ever try to explain to a nine month old that throwing up is okay? Hoss was a real trooper, though. His up-chucking stage only lasted part of one day and then we went through a tonne of diapers! The worst part with a little one is how much weight is lost in such a short time. Although the virus passes through quickly, it takes several days to re-train the tummy to eat normally. Almost one full week to get the little guy back to normal portions of formula and food. Plus the long lasting effect would be his new addiction to jello. </p><br /><p align="left">Now,infection control is still possible with an 11yo who can use a bucket and wash her hands - it is a different story when a baby is just using me to catch his emesis. So, then it was my turn. There is a question if it was just a coincidence that I spent a day with the bucket as my best friend, though. The night prior, my husband took me out for a nice dinner at a restaurant and I devoured a rack of honey garlic ribs. The garlic was excessive! So there is a question if that was what had me heaving - because that was the only symptom that I suffered. Not that made any difference during the time. </p><br /><p align="left">So...the question rises. How do we find something to be thankful about in all of this? </p><br /><p align="left">Actually, it wasn't too difficult to answer. You see, the three days prior to Duck becoming ill she spent on vacation with our friends at Niagara Falls Great Wolf Lodge Resort. It is a huge water park resort where they had an incredibly good time. Saturday morning, again before any ugly symptoms arose, she spent the time with her dad at the shooting range. So, we look at the fact that her vacation and daddy date were not hindered by the virus - a blessing to be thankful for indeed. </p><br /><p align="left">As for me, this past Saturday was a homeschool conference that I always enjoy attending each spring. Both kids were well enough to spend the day with Auntie L, which gave my husband and I the full day to ourselves. I became ill the day after. Again, a blessing that 'ralph and chuck' didn't ruin my day, either. </p><br /><p align="left">When God says 'in eveything give thanks', there really is always something for which to be thankful! </p><br /><p align="center"><span style="font-size:85%;">Now was there any other way to describe vomiting that I didn't use?</span></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8198652703155046065.post-23903076814876192652011-03-24T23:53:00.008-04:002011-04-10T18:59:57.841-04:00A Book Review 2<a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-gPgZSUaPoiU/TYwSqruMUmI/AAAAAAAAAyE/mfjwe4FIfDA/s1600/_76_128_Book_364_cover.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5587861762160218722" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 76px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 114px" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-gPgZSUaPoiU/TYwSqruMUmI/AAAAAAAAAyE/mfjwe4FIfDA/s400/_76_128_Book_364_cover.jpg" border="0" /></a> <em><span style="font-size:85%;"></span></em>Here's a little book I have been enjoying. <em><u>God's Wisdom for Mothers</u></em> is a cute little pocket sized book filled with scripture that has been organized under convenient headings. As compiled by Jack Countryman, the headings include: God's Wisdom is Needed in Every Mother's Life; The Crown of an Excellent Mother is from God; God's Wisdom with Children Requires Daily Training There are many more that are set out in easy to read format (from the NKJV) and convenient for short times for meditating on scripture. The size of the book is a perfect fit with my bible case and makes a great little gift for friends. Obviously, these books are not a substitution for studying from my bible, however, when I am swamped with homeschooling, or house management or any other number of events that put my daily schedule into a tailspin, a quick little book such as this gives me the opportunity to take little bites of scripture to feed me. This is a book that will stay right beside my Bible for a long time. Really, is there ever a time when God's wisdom isn't needed? Not in my life, anyway! <em><span style="font-size:85%;">D</span></em><em><span style="font-size:85%;">isclaimer: I receive books from Thomas Nelson Publishers (Booksneeze) free of charge in exchange for my unbiased opinion of them. I am not threatened or rewarded in any way in efforts to encourage me to provide a positive review. All opinions are mine.</span></em>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8198652703155046065.post-29247014022580373092011-03-24T22:49:00.008-04:002011-03-25T00:13:12.863-04:00Dog's Best Friend<div align="center">Warning: this is a post for animal lovers only! The rest of you won't get it...<br /></div><div align="center"></div><br /><br /><div align="left">My dog, Pokey, is known to us a sweet albeit mischievious jack russell terrier. He is not hyper, as his breed can be at times. In fact, he is on the lazy side when in the house. However, take him for a walk and he becomes a new dog. When Pokey walks through the neighbourhood he appears to present himself as a much larger dog - head held high and chest stuck out. A leash is a necessity as he is unpredictable around other dogs. There are times we pass another dog and Pokey doesn't even look at it; then there are times when he is bearing his teeth and snarling like he's a lion!</div><br /><div align="left">For the longest time we could not figure out what the difference in dogs was that could bring about such polarized reactions. Eventually, we realized. Pokey is a nazi - small 'n'. He hates all dogs who he deems to be ugly or stupid or just simply below his standards for dogs. It's true...we have tested the theory. Should an approaching dog be lunging on it's leash, tongue lolling, and generally acting like a fool...Poke hates it instantly. When a dog with a ridiculous haircut (think giant poodle) is approaching...Poke will start snarling as though to tell it how stupid it looks. On the opposite end, a dog who is generally composed while walking, with no unusual appearance or accessories...Poke will ignore it or give a courtesy sniff without incident.</div><br /><div align="left">There is one exception to this rule and he is our houseguest for the next few days. </div><br /><br /><div align="left"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5587849339376906946" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-Hqj03H1baDs/TYwHXlP2MsI/AAAAAAAAAxk/jegrTM1syZE/s400/kids%2B075.jpg" border="0" /></div><p>Meet George. He is a half breed poodle/jack mix - and, although he's as sweet as sugar, he has the intelligence of a potatoe. He is half Pokey's physical and intellectual size. And they love each other. When given the opportunity to visit together, they wrestle non-stop for 30 minutes or more and take a short break before starting up again. They will share food and water bowls and George is allowed to sleep in bed with us.</p><p>Now this isn't purely coincidental. George belongs to our good friends and he and Poke have known each other since they were pups. George is a year older than Poke which gave him some seniority when they first met and that may have channeled into a certain type of mutual adoration for their entire relationship. It works well because we dog-sit George while his family takes vacation and they will dog-sit Poke while we take some time away. </p><p>So for those who ever questioned if dogs really do have individual personality; for those who give strange looks to pet owners talking to their dogs as if they were people; for those who question if pets can love...these two really are BFFs.</p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8198652703155046065.post-86986796994187182852011-03-15T20:50:00.004-04:002011-03-16T15:19:12.396-04:00Awesome New Site<a href="http://www.doorposts.com/blog" target="_blank"><img src="http://www.doorposts.com/blog/wp-content/themes/doorposts/images/doorpostsofyourhouse.jpg" /></a><br /><br />I have always adored the resources put out by <a href="http://www.doorposts.com/">Doorposts</a>, and guess what? Now they have a wonderful <a href="http://www.doorposts.com/blog/">new blog</a> – you will love it! They are having 10 days of giveaways (with the grand prize being a complete set of <a href="http://www.doorposts.com/blog/grand-prize-giveaway/">ALL their products</a>!), so<a href="http://www.doorposts.com/blog/"> head on over</a> and check it out!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8198652703155046065.post-48193089565604384942011-03-10T22:20:00.005-05:002011-03-10T22:43:06.983-05:00A Book Review<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-0hl2aZW3248/TXmVwzfV2bI/AAAAAAAAAxc/6Owunks1K_c/s1600/_76_128_Book_291_cover.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5582657878790363570" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 76px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 117px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-0hl2aZW3248/TXmVwzfV2bI/AAAAAAAAAxc/6Owunks1K_c/s320/_76_128_Book_291_cover.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>Thanks to <a href="http://exultingchristian.blogspot.com/">Janet</a>, I found out about <a href="http://booksneeze.com/blogger">Booksneeze</a> and signed up to read some good books. My first book from the selection list was <u>Tithing</u>, by Douglas Leblanc. I have to admit that there was an initial disappointment when I started the book as I expected it would be a biblical study on tithing. Turns out that Mr. Leblanc put together several testimonies from people who have been blessed by practising this ancient practice (this is an installment of a multiple book series on the ancient practices).</div><div> </div><div></div><div><u>Tithing</u> is the fifth book in the "Ancient Practices Series" by Phyllis Tickle. It is a short book at 152 pages and a short study guide at the end. Mr. Leblanc travelled the to different states interviewing people for their testimonies on how tithing has affected their lives. These testimonies are written completely seperate from each other - each chapter is a story on its own. Mr. Leblanc's writing style is easy to follow, but tends to make a long story out of a short one. Therefore leaving the reader (me) bored before the end of the testimony.</div><div> </div><div></div><div>The testimonies are encouraging and a quick read, however, I was left with an unsatisfied feeling when the book was completed. It seemed as though a final chapter was needed to tie everything altogether. Although I did enjoy the study that has been added to the back of the book - it, too, could have been more in depth for the reader.</div><div> </div><div>My final opinion is simple. I'm glad I didn't pay for the book.</div><div> </div><div><em><span style="font-size:85%;">Disclaimer: I receive books from Thomas Nelson Publishers (Booksneeze) free of charge in exchange for my unbiased opinion of them. I am not threatened or rewarded in any way in efforts to encourage me to provide a positive review. All opinions are mine. </span></em></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8198652703155046065.post-30287306908869446502011-03-01T16:39:00.007-05:002011-03-04T10:39:08.664-05:00Regrets, I've Had a FewGenerally speaking, I don't spend alot of time fretting over mistakes. Hopefully, each time I make one (and I do make them!), I learn from them and move on. Regrets are little different.<br /><br />A regret is when my mistake involves other people. That time when I should have shared more of my faith with someone, or that time when my words came out too harshly, or that time I made an excuse to avoid a time of fellowship. These are the things I regret.<br /><br /><br />Several years ago, a woman I know became stricken with cancer. It was a real nasty type, but I won't go into details here. She was someone I consider a friend although we never saw each other frequently due to the distance that seperates her home from mine. No, it isn't hundreds of miles - it was just over an hour to drive. When I heard she had become ill, I sent an email offering my help. She replied that everything was going well.<br /><br /><br />Months passed and she attended a bible study that I was also attending. We talked about her illness and treatment. Things were going well - the word remission was used. Conversation turned to husbands and kids and homeschooling, etc. It was like she had never been sick! We said goodbye that day and it turned out to be goodbye forever. That was two years ago. She died at the end of January.<br /><br />Two years! Two years gone and I had never checked in with her. Two years and she went through a relapse with her cancer and fought a losing battle without my ever contacting her. I had known that relapse occurred and I had always said, "I must get hold of Miriam!" It never happened. I talked with mutual friends about taking a trip up to see her - I talked too long. Get this...she was even writing a blog about her experience and I <em>(a blogger!)</em> knew nothing about it until after she died.<br /><br />There is no doubt in my mind that she has met her Saviour; that she certainly isn't wondering about me. This world is a distant memory for her in glory. She has no more pain, no more regrets. Yet, I had one more lesson to learn from her - don't procrastinate with the people in my life. <br /><br /><em>If your interested in reading her story </em><a href="http://miriamweisz.blogspot.com/"><em>(here), </em></a><em>it is an amazing testimony for the Lord. Both in life and in death she glorifies Him. If nothing else, read the last post done by her oldest daughter. May God give my daughter the strength in faith that this young woman expresses.</em>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8198652703155046065.post-31137579699629005402011-02-11T13:33:00.003-05:002011-02-11T13:40:45.585-05:00Imagine That!Okay, so I'm spending a little time reading online newpapers during my day. Every now and then a gem of a story pokes up. <a href="http://fullcomment.nationalpost.com/2011/02/11/debate-children-are-better-off-being-raised-by-their-parents/">Read this</a>, although the headline says it all.<br /><br />Canadians are still following the socialist path, though. Just this year in Ontario we can now access early kindergarten - that's where you send your children to school all day at the age of 3. Sad.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8198652703155046065.post-34134565265217271042011-01-27T14:07:00.004-05:002011-01-27T14:13:45.493-05:00Canada 101Want to know what a socialist political state leads to after several decades? Check out life in 'free' Canada today at <a href="http://news.nationalpost.com/2011/01/20/man-faces-jail-after-protecting-home-from-masked-attackers/">this link here</a>. All the Americans who read here may want to sit down for this...after all, from what I've been reading your country is well on it's way to the same situation.<br /><br />Thankfully, I do believe that God is still on His throne.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8198652703155046065.post-61791646355467024012010-12-05T17:07:00.004-05:002010-12-06T10:51:29.129-05:00Off the GridOkay, I'm probably not going to say anything here that those who read here haven't already figured out. Off the grid; off line; taking a sabbatical...I'm just not hanging out in cyberspace lately. Having a 6mos old baby and a grade six student in one house pretty well keeps me busy. I haven't been able to shake the <em>'baby brain'</em> just yet when it comes to keeping my days organized - some days are better than others.<br /><br /><br />However, there is more to it. In times past when my days were too busy for writing my thoughts down I still found time to sit and read other blogs for fun and for encouragement as a christian, homeschooling mom. That isn't happening much these days. The interest for the <em>'computer zone'</em> just isn't there. <br /><br />I'm sure it will return. Even as I write this, I'm thinking about all the things in my life right now that I should be writing down. This blog was started so that I could think through my issues in life in order to help me become the woman God would want me to be in this life. I have always found writing out my personal studies, personal problems and even personal successes to be helpful in my learning process - I can be quite slow in that. Not to mention all the pictures we have to share!<br /><br />Life will go on without my blog updates, I know. One day soon the need to express myself here will return! Hopefully the time to do it will come as well. Stay tuned!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8198652703155046065.post-29798125606309439062010-10-18T07:32:00.000-04:002010-10-18T07:32:00.487-04:00Working with Discretion<div>Since <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Hoss</span> is a breast feeder it makes things <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">alot</span> easier for travel. As long as he and I are together and we can find a place to sit, we're all set. This has been great for our camping trips, shopping trips and, of course, our trip to Niagara Falls. Even for everyday activities it has proven to be convenient for any schedule we may be trying to keep - including Sundays for church.</div><br /><div></div><div><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">Hoss</span> is still wanting to eat every 2-3 hours during the day, and I had started out trying to adjust the schedule if we had plans to leave the house. Just a little 'tweaking' of the timeline to be able to go out of the house and not need to feed him while we were out. This could cause quite a bit of frustration for him and myself - not to mention my husband who would be sitting outside waiting for us to finish nursing and come dashing to the car. I could not remember ever doing this with Duck, who was also breastfed. Finally I came to the conclusion that I had not done this with Duck because it was better to let her eat when she wanted and not interfere with that natural scheduling. So now, that is what <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">Hoss</span> and I do. We nurse everywhere.</div><br /><div></div><div>Let's see...McDonald's, parking lots, beaches, campgrounds and church. The only place that has given me pause to reconsider this practice is church. </div><br /><div></div><div>Now, I am very discreet. In the sanctuary of our church, there is a back corner fireplace with a <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">love seat</span> beside it. If <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">Hoss</span> needs to eat, we sit back there and no one needs to know it. It helps that our pastor preaches without his glasses and therefore can't see the front row of the congregation, never <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">Hoss</span> and I at the back! (There was that church we visited while camping where the pastor was caught a little off guard when looking at the back row and seeing me sitting alone with a poncho draped over myself and two little feet kicking out - quite the look crossed his face)</div><br /><div></div><div>So what has given me reason to reconsider this whole set up? <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">Hoss</span> has yet to learn discretion in the process.</div><br /><div></div><div><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">Hoss</span> loves to nurse. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">Hoss</span> loves to eat, period. His love of eating is easily understood by the <strong><em>yummy</em></strong> noises he makes <em>(breathe, <strong><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">mmmmm</span></strong>, breathe, <strong><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">mmmmm</span></strong>, breathe, <strong><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">mmmmm</span></strong>, etc.)</em> Several people in the back row of the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_13">congregation</span> can be seen with their shoulders shaking as they laugh silently about the sounds emanating from the back corner.</div><br /><div></div><div>All in all, everyone has been generous in seeing <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_14">Hoss</span>' habit as cute rather than annoying. A little blessing in belonging to a small church where everyone knows each other well enough to be open about such things. </div><br /><div></div><div>Of course, how could anyone be annoyed at this:<img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5528100186974426450" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/TLfB1LdhlVI/AAAAAAAAAvc/5yChNJrsQvc/s400/Niagara+Falls+013.jpg" border="0" /></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8198652703155046065.post-12948288648143227292010-10-15T06:55:00.004-04:002010-10-15T15:44:46.157-04:00Autumn VacationOur recent, generally annual trip to Niagara Falls was wonderful. Just like camping, we went on the trip with the understanding that if Hoss didn't manage well, we would head for home. Just like camping, Hoss enjoyed the trip as well as the rest of us. Travelling this far south in the fall means the flowers in Niagara are still blooming beautifully. This the town clock in Niagara on the Lake:<img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5528101858118364290" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/TLfDWc9SbII/AAAAAAAAAv8/Jgm_chwDBmw/s400/Niagara+Falls+015.jpg" border="0" />Part of our tradition is to stop by a particular market that has jams, jellies, salsas, etc. made from their home grown produce. It is ridiculously exspensive, but they have free samples. We make our way around the store and try everything. Generally I buy some salt water taffy from them, but this year they decided not to make it! Very disappointing, but the samples were still good:<img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5528101865123173218" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/TLfDW3DXU2I/AAAAAAAAAwE/33yjd8yl0Tw/s400/Niagara+Falls+008.jpg" border="0" />For the first time, we visited Fort George on the Niagara River. The replication of the fort is pretty cool. The history behind the war of 1812 is all over Niagara, of course, but the fort (and the tour inside) makes it come alive to see how soldiers and their families lived during that time. The old guns and armoury is neat to see, too:<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/TLfDm5STUUI/AAAAAAAAAwM/GOxp3BAhSH4/s1600/Niagara+Falls+061.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5528102140600602946" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/TLfDm5STUUI/AAAAAAAAAwM/GOxp3BAhSH4/s400/Niagara+Falls+061.jpg" border="0" /></a> You've heard the phrase, 'go soak your head' - seriously, at this point Duck and her dad were alone with the camera. I have no idea what they are doing:<br /><div><div><div><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/TLfDV2pLypI/AAAAAAAAAv0/al53qHmAY9A/s1600/Niagara+Falls+122.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5528101847833496210" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/TLfDV2pLypI/AAAAAAAAAv0/al53qHmAY9A/s400/Niagara+Falls+122.jpg" border="0" /></a> For country bumpkins like us the hotel is just as much part of the vacation as visiting outside the city. Duck was quite the pool shark after a few games. We always pick a hotel with a good pool area and free breakfast - those are essentials:<br /><div><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/TLfDVvXgIGI/AAAAAAAAAvs/WqhH0kmzk_I/s1600/Niagara+Falls+059.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5528101845880283234" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/TLfDVvXgIGI/AAAAAAAAAvs/WqhH0kmzk_I/s400/Niagara+Falls+059.jpg" border="0" /></a> Even though we have a video of Hoss in the pool for his first time, we don't have a picture. This however, is what he looks like after a day of heavy 'partying' with his big sister:</div><div><br /><div><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/TLfCr8MOOXI/AAAAAAAAAvk/YV4CAh4uQyc/s1600/Niagara+Falls+002.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5528101127768127858" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/TLfCr8MOOXI/AAAAAAAAAvk/YV4CAh4uQyc/s400/Niagara+Falls+002.jpg" border="0" /></a>We are very thankful that God gave a baby that will travel with us to our usual haunts. How relaxed is that?<br /><br /><div></div></div></div></div></div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8198652703155046065.post-88607092693510541332010-10-02T13:19:00.018-04:002010-10-09T16:09:29.548-04:00Summary of Summer<div><div><div><div><div><div><div><div><div><div>It has truly passed by in a flash! Here we are enjoying our usual vacation time in September/October and I don't remember much of summer - I guess that can be expected when it was spent in so many hospitals. So here is a quick picture summary of our activities of late:</div><div> </div><div> </div><div><em>First day of rice cereal</em><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5523503555155672306" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/TKdtN_ipPPI/AAAAAAAAAu0/z0puRzyC1g0/s400/camping+and+such+067.jpg" border="0" /><em>A birthday party IN Algonquin Park. The family throwing the party works in the provincial park for the summer (dad is a bush pilot) and most of the festivities were held in the plane hanger - cool! The kids had face painting done.</em><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5523503353293090386" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/TKdtCPi2rlI/AAAAAAAAAus/dpsiUB6SYJQ/s400/camping+and+such+025.jpg" border="0" /><em>Hoss is known as of late as 'the pickle', so that strange thing on his forhead is...a pickle!</em><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5523500986054705538" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/TKdq4c5PgYI/AAAAAAAAAuk/GTw4w8NE0NA/s400/camping+and+such+022.jpg" border="0" /><em>Even after the party was over, we camped at the homestead of the host family for a couple of nights. Well...OK, we stayed in a trailer with full kitchen and indoor plumbing. Not really ruffin' it for first time camper Hoss.</em><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5523500830633977634" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/TKdqvZ6DZyI/AAAAAAAAAuc/1U_n16xmUUE/s400/camping+and+such+004.jpg" border="0" /><em>We took a semi-school trip to Sainte-Marie Among the Hurons, in Midland, Ontario. Long drive, but neat day. Here is my husband with a fox hat.</em><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5526136992677207986" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/TLDIUOyrn7I/AAAAAAAAAvU/xO72yVzMrao/s400/Vvarious+035.jpg" border="0" /><em>Taking Hoss means having to find places to breastfeed. We're hiding in one of the display houses here - and take a few people by surprise when they realize what I'm doing!</em><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5526135237032036674" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/TLDGuCgQSUI/AAAAAAAAAvM/i4i6lHFtBps/s400/Vvarious+050.jpg" border="0" /><em>Here's the real camping trip. We spent three nights in a tent, but had good weather and a good portable heater!</em><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5523503961942007202" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/TKdtlq8EHaI/AAAAAAAAAvE/xVAVSIAq5yw/s400/camping+and+such+092.jpg" border="0" /><em>Don't let the smiles fool you...these two puberty queens can be really scary!</em><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5523503807332278626" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/TKdtcq-O4WI/AAAAAAAAAu8/uUlgK80hvDw/s400/camping+and+such+087.jpg" border="0" /></div><div><em>An autumn wedding. Two young people from our church who actually did it God's way! They met in the fall of 2009 and followed through on their convictions in courtship/purity. A real blessing to finally see it done right!</em><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5523500439624914274" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/TKdqYpSOlWI/AAAAAAAAAuU/v3Ah0j9L6Vc/s400/Wedding+shots+039.jpg" border="0" /><em>Two beautiful children standing in the receiving line. OK, I'm biased.</em><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5523500269464358818" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/TKdqOvYyj6I/AAAAAAAAAuM/XGhWVrOhRng/s400/Wedding+shots+052.jpg" border="0" /></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div><br />And there you have it. Our summer in a nutshell. I have several other posts that are half written - sooner or later I'll finish them and get them out. Hope your summer and autumn has been a good to you, too!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8198652703155046065.post-58465001114398470722010-09-18T22:40:00.000-04:002010-09-18T22:40:00.227-04:00The 'P' WordMany years ago, when my husband and I were <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">DINKS</span> (double income, no kids) we did some unusual things. One particular event involved housing a <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">raccoon</span> in our home. My husband worked for a wildlife rehab and sanctuary at the time, and when they were overrun with <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">raccoons</span> at one point we decided to take one home and care for it. It was a baby <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">raccoon</span>, but she was very...um...rotund. She was given the name of Beatrice, because we thought she needed a moniker that provided some lady-like character to her. It would prove to be the only thing about her that was lady-like.<br /><br />She was greedy, selfish, <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">gluttonous</span> and could be very nasty during her play. Oh, but she was adorable! The two dogs we had at the time did not agree with this assessment. My doberman/shepherd was a senior in age and did her best to simply ignore the intruder. This proved difficult when Beatrice would 'hunt' her in the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">living room</span>. The <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">raccoon</span> would sneak up behind the dog, grab her backside and run away. The old dog would move to a new spot and sigh as she laid down again. This was before we owned a video camera otherwise we could have easily won the America's funniest video with this daily <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">occurrence</span>.<br /><br />The other dog was only about 5 years old and did not have any patience for the wild rodent that had invaded her home. She was a black lab cross so these creatures were for hunting and killing as far as she was concerned. After some training, she came to realize that she was not allowed to harm this <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">raccoon</span> and it was a very confusing set up for her. So she came up with a solution. She moved into the closet. As soon as the racoon's cage door was opened, the Lab went to the bedroom and settled into the closet. A place of refuge and safety from the creature that she wanted to kill.<br /><br />We often remember this situation when we talk about trying to avoid unpleasant things now. Laughing about how much better it would be if we could just move into the closet and ignore the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">unpleasantness</span>, whatever it may be.<br /><br />Well, the unpleasantness at the moment is the 'P' word. Our beautiful, almost 11 year old girl has been transformed by the 'P' word. Puberty. Lord help us!<br /><br />All of a sudden there is drama everywhere. Anxiety is oozing out of her daily routine.<br /><br /><em>"What if I'm not <u>really</u> sorry for my sins?"; "How do I <u>really</u> know that God loves me?"; "How do I <u>really</u> know that I love Him or you?"; "Do you think boys notice me?"; "If I don't clean my room perfectly <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">every time</span>, is that disobedience?"</em><br /><em></em><br />Every topic from God to boys to personal hygiene to daily chores is being questioned to death. If her father and I try to talk about anything in depth the tears start to fall. At one point, I sent her to her room for a full afternoon because I needed to breath for awhile. <br /><br />I know, I know, this too shall pass. In the mean time pray for me! My patience is hanging on by a thread. My husband has moved into the closet.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8198652703155046065.post-19003972035707950702010-09-01T15:50:00.011-04:002010-09-16T22:40:19.066-04:00A Decisive ManAs I mentioned in the previous posts about Hoss, he came home from hospital with a feeding tube in his nose(NG tube). I have hated that tube from the first week it was inserted. It was necessary in the beginning simply because Hoss did not have the 'natural' skill to suck, swallow, breath - in that order. For the first 2 1/2 weeks since he was born, Hoss received all his nutrition from an IV line. Once he started to wake up more, we needed to get his gastric system moving - so, tube in and he started taking 2ml of breast milk. Seriously, just 2ml (30ml = 1 ounce) to test out his digestion and elimination. It did increase quickly, and before too long he was receiving 80ml of breast milk through the tube every three hours.<br /><div><div><div><br /><div></div><div></div><div>Here is where the problem arose. The tube enters through Hoss' nose and goes down his esophagus and into his stomach. The tube is there constantly, so his stomach entry cannot close completely. This causes regurgitation and acid reflux. The tube can irritate the esophagus and cause increased mucous build up - this happens in the nose, too. Therefore, whether he took 2ml or 80ml of milk something always came back up. The smell of acid was prevalent in his burps and the coughing and sneezing could make him mad. </div><br /><div></div><div>How is this tube a good thing?</div><br /><div></div><div>Adding to the trouble with the presence of the tube, the hospital staff insisted on following a <em>chart </em>about the amount of intake rather than looking at Hoss as an individual. Remember, <a href="http://theexecutivehousewife.blogspot.com/2010/08/policy-and-procedure.html">policy and procedure </a>comes before common sense. Eventually, the hospital was increasing his intake to 115ml every four hours (I had to request that it be 4 hours apart vs. 3h) and immediately after the machine stopped pumping the milk into him, he would throw up at least 1/3 of it. The gurgle from his stomach was audible from a good distance and was quickly followed by a huge amount of spit up (change that, it wasn't a 'spit up' it was a <strong>throw up!</strong>)<br /></div><br /><p><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5512413228997813938" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/TIAGoDGUJrI/AAAAAAAAAtM/cE5Z4cwRrd4/s400/Ben+027.jpg" border="0" />All this I put up with in order to <em>just get him home!</em> I knew once I had him in my own house I could start adjusting his care to suit his needs. And that is exactly what I did. From the moment we walked in the door, Hoss' eating schedule was changed to every two hours at a total of 2 oz - I would work with him to take a whole ounce from a bottle and the remainder came through the tube. It was hard work and could be very frustrating. Really, a baby is supposed to know how to eat, right!?</p><p>The spit up still happened, but it was only small amounts - like any baby can have. However, Hoss was not progressing on the bottle very quickly. Part of his therapy was to encourage him to take a pacifier (to improve his suck), he did not like the 'doe-doe' as we call it. So the question remained, 'how are we ever going to get rid of the tube if Hoss won't take a bottle?'</p><p>I have found a few ladies on-line who had been through the experience. This brought mixed encouragement as some of their children have taken to the bottle after a few weeks of working on it, but some children are still on the tube after their 1st birthday! <em>"Please God I don't want this tube here that long!"</em></p><p>One week to the day that we arrived home from hospital, Hoss was literally spitting out the nipple from his bottle each time it was offered to him. He was getting mad at me for sticking back in his mouth and I was getting frustrated with him for constantly turning his face into my chest.</p><p>Wait a minute...duh! Hoss was looking for the breast. So, I offered it to him half-heartily - not really expecting much. Then he nursed for 25 minutes in total. Go figure. All this time the experts were insisting the therapy with the bottle was the only way - and I was listening. Even an anti-socialist like me can get caught in the trap of ignorance. It took an infant to point it out to me!</p><p>From that point on, Hoss has chosen the breast over bottle. He is taking a doe-doe now, which is something I am most grateful for at 4 a.m. To top it all off, three days after he decided he would be a breast fed boy, he also pulled out the NG tube by himself. Which is good, because I might have received some prying questions from doctors if I had removed it. Did I mention how much I hated it?</p><p align="center">Meet the tubeless wonder boy: <img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5517705851962196658" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/TJLUPQFNArI/AAAAAAAAAt0/misuucpJhAM/s400/more+ben2+344.jpg" border="0" />First day at the beach!<img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5517705580520303234" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/TJLT_c4aaoI/AAAAAAAAAts/Tklf3GZHBz0/s400/more+ben2+357.jpg" border="0" />So there you have it...a little child shall lead them.<br /><br /><br /><br /></p><div></div></div></div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8198652703155046065.post-47247275672428912412010-08-28T07:54:00.004-04:002010-08-28T07:54:00.775-04:00Policy and ProcedureLiving in an institution can really bring the characteristics of a society to light. While Hoss was in different hospitals during his first 6 weeks of life, I was living in and around those hospitals, too. As both Hoss and I started to come out of our respective comas (his drug induced, mine emotionally induced), I started questioning different events that were directly affecting our situation - much to the chagrin of some of the medical staff.<br /><br />The first incident involved the use of morphine on my little guy. Yes, I understand he would have a heck of a headache from the brain hemorrhage, but morphine is not a drug that I have ever appreciated. I have seen it do some nasty things to people and had some loopy moments myself on the one occasion that it was prescribed to me. So I asked for the plan to reduce it in Hoss' medication regime. The standard answer, <em>"that's up to the doctor."</em><br /><br />Well then...let's get hold of the doctor. I patiently listened to the doctor's explanation as to why the drug was implemented. Then asked again..."<em>what is the plan to reduce it?"<br /></em><br />Slowly the staff realizes I am not going to nod my head up and down at their 'expert' opinion and then they actually set a plan to reduce, then remove the drug from the medications that Hoss is taking. Excellent decision.<br /><br />Keep in mind that I truly see SickKids hospital as a place that does incredible work with some amazing success stories. The staff are gentle and kind to parents as well as the patients. However, even the staff can become institutionalized in the way they operate. That means they stop <u><em>thinking in</em> <em>individualized cases</em></u> and stick to policies and procedure (or protocol is another word they like to use). Where I ran into the most difficulty with this lack of common sense in favour of policy and procedure was at the second, smaller hospital after leaving SickKids.<br /><br />When an infant is born in hospital and has never been discharged to home, that infant is always placed in the hospital nursery rather than a general paediatric unit. So it was for us when transferred out of SickKids. The second hospital booked us right into their nursery that was set up to hold 6 infants at one time. However, during our two week stay that nursery held up to 10 babies because of sudden admissions from OB. It was tight quarters!<br /><br />As Hoss began to improve, I found the situation inappropriate for his needs. Because of the many parents, visitors and staff coming and going through the nursery it was difficult for Hoss to concentrate on learning to take a bottle (I had given up on breastfeeding earlier and started expressing the milk due to the lack of privacy). The high number of babies in the nursery also made it nearly impossible for the staff to work with Hoss on his bottle when I was not there. It was much easier for the nurses to just plug him into the machine on his feeding tube. Therefore, I would spend four days at 12 - 14 hours in the nursery in the hospital working with Hoss to improve his feeding skills only to leave for two days at home and he would not have any practice at all.<br /><br /><em><span style="font-size:85%;">(BTW this same problem occurs for the elderly that I have generally worked with in my former career. Therapy of any kind simply does not happen with hospital staffing levels. It isn't the nurses to blame, they simply do not have the time to put into therapy exercises. If a senior has a hip replaced, the exercises and walking practice simply do not occur with hospital staff. Which leads to the adage 'people do not get better in the hospital' - at least not where the extra time is needed.)</span></em><br /><br />This gave rise to my approaching the staff about Hoss being moved out of the nursery to a general paediatric room where parents are expected to stay 24hours to provide the extra care. Once again I ran into the policy and procedure wall.<br /><br />Doctor, with patient look of condescension, "<em>it isn't the general practice to move an infant out of the nursery when they have never been discharged to home before"</em><br /><br />Me: <em>"I understand that, however, for Hoss it would beneficial to improving his feeding skills - which is the only thing left to work on before his discharge"</em><br /><br />Doctor: <em>"well, general paeds is considered to be more infectious because of the people being admitted from home. Hoss would be vulnerable to several new viruses. Now, if he doesn't progress on his intake at the bottle we </em>may<em> look at sending him home with the feeding tube in place. But, that would be in the future and isn't generally done either."</em><br /><br />Me, with patience and polite tone: <em>"Are you telling me that the nursery is less likely to have viruses enter it? This nursery that has 4 babies more than it is supposed to have, therefore 4 families more sharing the room all together. Plus all the visitors that come into the open nursery to visit all 10 babies and, because of the extra babies, the nurses that are currently working on both general paeds and in the nursery - when Hoss would have a private room in general paeds with just his own family visiting. How is this a better set up?"</em><br /><br />Doctor, with stunned look replacing look of condescension, <em>"well, I guess that does sound unreasonable when looked at it in that way...but, policy and procedure have been set up this way."</em><br /><br />Me, working really hard not to be condescending: <em>"Tell me who to talk to about changing policy and procedure for Hoss' best interests. He needs his mom here around the clock in order to provide his direct care. Unless anyone can guarantee that his occupational therapy will be completed properly even when I am not here."</em><br /><br />Doctor, with look of resignation, <em>"I'll see what we can do."</em><br /><br />One day later, Hoss was moved to general paediatrics. The room had a pull out bed for me and was private - no roommates. The nurse on duty that day looked at me with an amused smile, <em>"I do not know how you managed this, but I know that alot of moms in the nursery have asked before and have been told it does not happen. After all,..."</em><br /><br />I finished her sentence for her, <em>"I know...policy and procedure."</em><br /><br />Hoss and I were in the hospital for four more days. We did get discharged home with the feeding because I pulled out the secret weapon that the <em>'experts'</em> find hard to ignore.<br /><br /><em>"I am a nurse, after all."</em> Never mind that I am an experienced mom that is confident in the care I provide to my child. Never mind that no one cares more about my son's health than myself and my husband. That would not have convinced the <em>'experts'</em> to discharge us with what is considered a complex medical concern. However, being a nurse hits the right button and everyone breaths a big sigh of understanding.<br /><br />After all, as a nurse I totally understand policy and procedure.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8198652703155046065.post-17821858217432781102010-08-22T22:43:00.010-04:002010-08-26T00:08:44.538-04:00Though He Slay Me... (part 2)<div><div><div>I was so angry with God, but afraid to say it out loud. Is it okay to angry with God? Will He strike me down if I admit it to anyone? The bible tells me in several places to 'pour out my heart', but my heart didn't have anything nice to say to Him. Why is He putting my family through this trauma? Why is my newborn son's life hanging in the balance after waiting ten years for another child?</div><div></div><br /><div>WHY?!</div><br /><div></div><div>My son was born on June 13th and I was having this conversation with myself in my first full shower on June 15th in the parent's room at SickKids hospital in Toronto. The neonatologist had visited us this same evening to discuss the findings of his assessments and tests so far. The doctor's best guess was that our son had suffered a stroke during birth - because he was big and came fast. The only test remaining to complete was an MRI, which would be completed that night. We would have confirmation on a diagnosis within 24 hours, but we needed to be prepared for the possibility that our baby would not breath on his own, may never walk or come out of a constant seizure state.</div><div></div><br /><div>How does a parent sleep after a conversation such as this? I can tell you, there is no sleeping.</div><div></div><br /><div>We could visit our boy anytime we wanted, 24hours a day. He was on such heavy medications, including three seizure drugs, that he was unconscious. The many tubes and wires that were attached to him made it difficult to touch him and he was very swollen from many needle pricks and fluids he had received. All this, and the machine doing the breathing for him, he looked more like a robot than a baby.<img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5509552099444400626" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/THXccY7kIfI/AAAAAAAAAs0/qRkpbC6AxdU/s400/More+Ben+and+camping+at+smoke+lake+049.jpg" border="0" /></div></div><p>The next 24hour wait is very much a blur in my mind. I know I ate, because my dad and his wife came and brought food to us. I know I walked around the hospital, because I remember feeling great resentment about how cheery they had made the environment (I wanted my surroundings to be just as black as I felt). I know my husband was at my side the entire time, because I remember holding his hand almost constantly. What I don't remember is talking, or thinking, or acknowledging anything. Both my husband and I were living in a fog.</p><p>For as much as we, as parents, were being drawn through the 'valley of death', our little Duck was having a hard time, too. In some ways it was harder for her because she was not at the hospital with us. She was seperated from her entire family and had little information other than her new baby brother was very sick. We were trying to protect her from the worst, but she is far more intelligent than we were giving her credit for being - she already had started praying for a miracle.</p><p>We finally reached the next evening and the neonatologist returned to our room, bringing the social worker and the duty nurse with him. This, to me, was a sign that he wanted extra support for the negative news he was about to deliver. He drew a picture of a brain to show us what had been discovered from the tests. Our son had suffered a brain bleed in the left ventricle of his brain. The blood that had collected in the ventricle had caused the seizures and some brain damage could be seen on the wall of the ventricle.</p><p>He raised his head to look at us and said, "this is far better news than a diagnosis of stroke". </p><p>What? This is good news?</p><p>The doctor continued to explain that the bleed had stopped on it's own and the blood would also reabsorb on it's own - our bodies are made to work that way. The damage was a small area on the wall of the ventricle that may affect our boy's right sided motor skills and his vision (they know this because the brain is mapped out very well). However, because he is just newborn, there may not be any noticeable affect. As he grows and learns to grab and walk and use his right side, he may simply adapt to any weaknesses and develop normally.</p><p>Yes...this was much better news than a stroke, which would have damaged a much larger portion of his brain. The doctor smiled at us and said, "I'm glad my initial assessment was wrong."</p><p>At this point, my nurse brain snapped back on - I started asking about care plans, future therapy, reductions in medications, etc. It didn't take me long to move past the dark world that I had been living in and move to a place of hope again. </p><p>It took a little longer to reconcile my feelings toward the Lord. The prayer of thanks was immediate, but I didn't have the answer to my 'why?' question. In the end, I have concluded that we are 'vessels of clay' and He will 'have mercy on whom He will have mercy.' I serve a soveriegn God and although I don't understand the purpose in this event, I simply accept that <u><em>He had a purpose </em></u>- and I may never know what it was.</p><p align="center"><em><span style="color:#009900;">For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than you thoughts. Isaiah 55:8&9<br /></span></em></p><p align="left">To make the final part of the story short, our little man spent three weeks in SickKids before being transferred back to the first NICU where his seizures started. He stayed in that hospital for another two weeks and then CAME HOME! He came home with a feeding tube in place, but he was bright eyed and active. That activity has shown that his right arm and leg are strong and moving just as much as his left side!</p><p align="center"><span style="color:#009900;"><em>I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well. Psalm 139:14</em></span></p><p align="center">I will expound on some of the details that I've skipped over here (including a commentary about why I<em><strong> still</strong></em> don't support socialized medicine). However, with a newborn boy keeping me busy at home - the posts may be slow in getting out.</p><p>Meet 'Hoss':<img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5509561233451054722" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/THXkwDwc9oI/AAAAAAAAAs8/6WRyRstwiVs/s400/Ben+006.jpg" border="0" /></p></div><br />And the best babysitter I could ever have:<img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5509563439864508290" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/THXmwfSab4I/AAAAAAAAAtE/nmUB3frd61A/s400/Ben+029.jpg" border="0" />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8198652703155046065.post-88162084970402383452010-08-12T23:11:00.008-04:002010-08-20T22:40:53.657-04:00Though He Slay Me... (part one)When expecting a child, most women daydream of the time they hold their new little one in their arms. To be able to gaze into your newborn's eyes, count ten fingers and ten toes. These anticipations are the thoughts that come at the end of a pregnancy - at least, that's where my thoughts were before June 13th of this year. My son was born that day. Just five days overdue.<br /><br />I woke up at 1:30 a.m. in labour and woke the rest of my family by 2:30 a.m. to get ready to go to the hospital. After phoning the OB nurse at that same time, my water broke and we quickly headed out the door. Only a short labour period past and my son was born at 3:57 a.m. - that's only 2 1/2 hours from beginning to end. Some women with long labours may be impressed, even jealous at this expediency. Don't be, it was not a good thing.<br /><br />Our handsome boy weighed in at 9lbs and 6 1/2 oz, 22 inches long. He was very bruised about his head because of the speed he came through the birth canal. Immediately, the medical staff noted that his blood sugar was too low and started the process to raise it. Their efforts did not improve the situation and within 5 hours of delivery we were transferred from our small town hospital to a more technologically advanced Neonatal Intensive Care Unit about an hour south of us. Little did we know the events that were to come.<br /><br /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5504732532557331074" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_3kE6VpxzzNA/TGS9ErKduoI/AAAAAAAAAss/h3nKMJU8rSI/s400/Benjamin+and+others+096.jpg" border="0" /><br />Because my boy was in the care of a NICU with 24hour monitors and high ratio of staff to patient it was noted that he started to have seizures. In fact, the seizures became continuous to the point that he would stop breathing and require resuscitation. This is only day two of his life. Before this day was over, my son was intubated onto a full time respirator and we were being transferred to <a href="http://www.sickkids.ca/">The Hospital for Sick Children in Toronto </a>with no idea why the seizures were happening or if they could get them under control. More seriously, would our son ever breath on his own again. We had only held him for a short time after his birth and I had not been able to nurse him yet.<br /><br />When we arrived at <a href="http://www.sickkids.ca/">SickKids</a> hospital, we were presented with the some of the initial test results and physical assessments. They did not know why the seizures were occurring. They did not know why this baby boy would not breath on his own. They only knew that we should be prepared for the possibility of having to say 'goodbye' to our boy after only saying 'hello' a few short hours before.<br /><br />This isn't how it is supposed to happen. Not only did I start sending desperate cries to God, I had so many questions as to 'why' He would allow this to happen to my family. While I am questioning Him, I'm also trying to answer my 10 year old daughter's questions that are the same as mine. <em>'Why, Lord, why?' </em>I didn't have an answer for her. All we could do was cry together as a family...and wait.<br /><br />I was drawn to the book of Job - here was a man who had suffered much and maintained his faith:<br /><br /><div align="center"><em><span style="color:#006600;">What? shall we receive good at the hand of God, and shall we not receive evil? Job 2:10b</span></em></div><div align="center"><em><span style="color:#006600;"></span></em></div><div align="center"><em><span style="color:#006600;">Though he slay me, yet will I trust him: Job 13:15</span></em></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left">Obviously, I wanted a positive ending to our trauma. I did not want to share in Job's strengths by losing my child. I did not want to say goodbye.</div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left">(more to come as I am able to write it)</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8198652703155046065.post-76892462423033824582010-04-28T22:41:00.004-04:002010-04-28T22:50:32.283-04:00Making It OfficialLet me start by saying <em>'thank you'</em> to the lovely ladies who have emailed me to ask about my extended absence on the blog. I am fine, the baby is fine. The e-notes just brought forward the need to sign off the web world...albeit temporarily.<br /><br />It isn't that I haven't had post ideas on my mind, in fact I have several notes jotted down. I just haven't got the energy to stay awake for my usual blogging time, which is after Duck and Dad are in bed. Somewhere between 10 p.m. and midnight I still enjoy visiting and reading other blogs, but pulling out the keyboard and concentrating on my spelling and grammar is just beyond my brain (baby brain!) at this point in my pregnancy. <br /><br />So, I am signing off for a blogging sabbatical. At least for a few months until my life has returned to a normal energy level and some <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">semblance</span> of routine. If you want an announcement when the baby arrives, just email me and I will be sure to keep you in the loop.<br /><br />You will see me around the web world visiting though - I need the encouragement that is always found at my favourite sites!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com4